I’ve accomplished few things of substance in my life. But the greatest has been making this girl smile. Bless you always Rene.
In memory of my beloved cat I will post the last picture below. It was taken the night before he was hit by a car. I love you Tofu. You are missed, you simple and beautiful friend :)
Life update
Today I took a big step towards conquering my life. I cannot live in fear of anything because it’s irrational and has nothing to do with me.
My first income!
That’s right. Today, I received my first income as an independant illustrator/concept artist.
It’s not a lot, but it really is… to me. I know this is the tip of the ice berg. I’m proud of myself and know I will continue to bring light and love into my life in every form.
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I have been diagnosed with IBS by my doctor. Symptoms all check out. It’s a major bummer, but I know it’s part of a bigger plan. I know nothing happens without good reason and balance.
I love you all, especially the ones that I know suffer the most.
My dad is my hero
Really tough times atm.
No job, no cat, no girlfriend, no money, no fitness, no health.
It’s true what he says: Things are about to get really really awesome.
When you’re down you have to realise it’s gonna pass, because you can’t plan life, you just have to live it to the best of your ability and remember that honouring your life and your destiny is the most important thing.
Bobby says: Good things are just around the corner, this is life testing me.
Thank you Bobby n______n
I have felt this way about it for a long time, good to see I’m not mad after all!
Just another step
Tomorrow I will be 27 years old.
I remember a time imagining what it would be like to be 21. I said I would be driving, living my own independant life, I would be an adult.
Sometimes I realise how that was quite foolish, because life happens in ways that are much better, more profound and meaningful.
This last year has taught me some of the most important lessons I can ever imagine.
I’ve learned to believe in myself, believe in who I am, what I choose to do and who I decide to meet along the way.
I am more fulfilled now, than I ever have been. I am literally living the dream I always hoped for. I am an artist and I breathe life into my work.
I have learned more about the universe through self love than I can ever express.
The most profound realisation is that the realm of existence we live in is subject to how we feel about our own existence. I know this world is a reflection of my dreams, my hopes my aspirations to be the purest soul I can be.
I am learning how to love everyone for simply being a big part of that. I’m learning now how to appreciate everything I have in my life.
I feel blessed to be alive, I am in love.
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Roll of the dice
Take a spin of the wheel
Out of your hands now
So how do you feel
But you’re not gonna win
You’d better go back again
Do you feel lucky
Or do you feel scared
Take what luck brings
And be Devil may care
But you’re down on your luck
What will the next day bring
Adrift on the ocean
Afloat in a daydream
Or lost in a maze
Or blind in the haze
So what does it matter
So why don’t you answer
So why did you send
An angel to mend
Best make decisions
Before it’s too late
Take all your chances
Take hold of the reins
A roll of the dice
Ahead of the game again
Nothing to lose
But so much to gain
A little danger
It goes without saying
But what do you care
You’re gonna go in the end
Gate open to heaven
Is ready and waiting
Or straight down to hell
Can go there as well
I’ll suffer my craving
My soul’s not worth saving
So why don’t you go
Just leave well alone
Don’t you think I’m a savior
Don’t you think I could save you
Don’t you think I could save your life
There’s like a hunger
That knocks on your door
You’ve had a taste of it
Still you want more
You’ve made your mistakes
Won’t play it the same again
You have been warned
But still you plunge in
You play high stakes
But there’s nothing to win
You’ve only one life
And so many things to learn
The Angel on one side
The Devil the other
Which path do you take
Decisions to make
Arrive at the crossroads
You know where you’re going
And what if you wait
It may be too late
